I struggled with bad depression and anxiety before I got saved. I felt like I had no where to turn and life seemed worthless. The only spots of joy were my daughter and I wasn't even enjoying her as much as I do now. But when I got saved something changed. I had hope. I felt like a brand new person. It seemed that my worries, gradually, disappeared. I realize now it's because I have Someone I can trust in to take care of all things for me. I no longer have to worry. I can't say that I will never feel that way again, but I can say I haven't in a while and it happened before I could even realize. Yesterday my fiance looked at me and said so is your anxiety just gone now? and I thought about it for a second and I said, "I don't know what God's plans are, but it's got for now!" I'm sure he was relieved but I was even more glad to say it!
But not only has God taken care of my emotional needs He's seen to my other needs as well. A few days before I ran into the woman who made me realize I needed to seek Jehovah and HIS strength evermore my fiance got a wonderful job. His job search had been for what was approaching a year with no real progress. He went on interview after interview. Now let me tell you my fiance is AMAZING and why these companies would not hire him was COMPLETELY beyond me. But I guess it just wasn't time yet. until a few days before I started to seek Jehovah.
When I got saved (PRAISE GOD) he had been working on this job for a few months as a temp. So his future employment still loomed in the air. We began to save up money so he could find an apartment, he was staying with a friend at the time. We just hoped and prayed that the job would go permanent so he could have his own place. I went into to work one day and my boss gave me a BONUS check for the holidays that I was NOT expecting. So I said "honey we need to open a separate savings account with this". He agreed and we started saving more and more money. Money just kept pouring in. Then we found an apartment that would be perfect for him (and me after we get married). But his job still hadn't gone permanent. We discussed it over and over and over. Finally after MUCH prayer we decided to trust in the Lord with all our heart, and lean not on our own understanding. We went for it! He got the apartment and we rested in the Lord knowing He would provide. We put down a deposit and had a month to save up the rest of the money.
A few days after he had moved in. He received an email from his company saying they were ready to start the hiring process! excited is beyond the word to use here, thankful can't even describe, and tears weren't even enough emotion! He started working as a full time employee and things have been going great and we PRAISE God EVERYDAY for all He has done. With out Him NONE of this would be possible!
I know you think that must be it right? Wrong. A few days ago I realized I REALLY need some new skirts. Most of mine were fit for winter and had come from the GoodWill. So if it wasn't for winter it was wearing a bit, as I only have a few. I was thinking on it a bit and I said well it'll get worked out. A few days later a good Christian friend of mine who is also skirts only texts me saying "I'm getting rid of some skirts do you want them?" My heart LEAPED with excitement and thanks. I told her I did and would come over after church to check them out. When I got to her house I was expecting 2-3 skits. She gave me TEN skirts! TEN! That's more skirts then I already owned! But like I said I serve (we serve)a LOVING, FAITHFUL, and MERCIFUL GOD! He said in His word that He would take care of us. He said not to worry about anything because HE KNOWS our needs! I've never felt as loved in my whole life as I feel From my WONDERFUL, AMAZING, BRILLIANT GOD!
30Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. -Matthew 6:30-33
