Still around

Hello.. I'm still here. I just have A LOT of changes happening in my life. I'm still LOVING THE LORD and that won't change but A LOT is going on. I will fill in all the gaps soon but right now I need time to handle the things that have been happening. I hope all is well with everyone and please keep me in your prayers. Prayfully this hiatus will not be lasting much longer but only time will tell.

In HIM always,
Tewauna

He keeps His promises...

What a LOVING, FAITHFUL, and MERCIFUL God we serve! Since I've become a true believer and seeker of the Lord He has been so faithful to me! All of my needs have been met beyond my own comprehension. Every time it seems like things aren't going to work out. God changes things and fixes them for His glory.


I struggled with bad depression and anxiety before I got saved. I felt like I had no where to turn and life seemed worthless. The only spots of joy were my daughter and I wasn't even enjoying her as much as I do now. But when I got saved something changed. I had hope. I felt like a brand new person. It seemed that my worries, gradually, disappeared. I realize now it's because I have Someone I can trust in to take care of all things for me. I no longer have to worry. I can't say that I will never feel that way again, but I can say I haven't in a while and it happened before I could even realize. Yesterday my fiance looked at me and said so is your anxiety just gone now? and I thought about it for a second and I said, "I don't know what God's plans are, but it's got for now!" I'm sure he was relieved but I was even more glad to say it!

But not only has God taken care of my emotional needs He's seen to my other needs as well. A few days before I ran into the woman who made me realize I needed to seek Jehovah and HIS strength evermore my fiance got a wonderful job. His job search had been for what was approaching a year with no real progress. He went on interview after interview. Now let me tell you my fiance is AMAZING and why these companies would not hire him was COMPLETELY beyond me. But I guess it just wasn't time yet. until a few days before I started to seek Jehovah.

When I got saved (PRAISE GOD) he had been working on this job for a few months as a temp. So his future employment still loomed in the air. We began to save up money so he could find an apartment, he was staying with a friend at the time. We just hoped and prayed that the job would go permanent so he could have his own place. I went into to work one day and my boss gave me a BONUS check for the holidays that I was NOT expecting. So I said "honey we need to open a separate savings account with this". He agreed and we started saving more and more money. Money just kept pouring in. Then we found an apartment that would be perfect for him (and me after we get married). But his job still hadn't gone permanent. We discussed it over and over and over. Finally after MUCH prayer we decided to trust in the Lord with all our heart, and lean not on our own understanding. We went for it! He got the apartment and we rested in the Lord knowing He would provide. We put down a deposit and had a month to save up the rest of the money.

A few days after he had moved in. He received an email from his company saying they were ready to start the hiring process! excited is beyond the word to use here, thankful can't even describe, and tears weren't even enough emotion! He started working as a full time employee and things have been going great and we PRAISE God EVERYDAY for all He has done. With out Him NONE of this would be possible!

I know you think that must be it right? Wrong. A few days ago I realized I REALLY need some new skirts. Most of mine were fit for winter and had come from the GoodWill. So if it wasn't for winter it was wearing a bit, as I only have a few. I was thinking on it a bit and I said well it'll get worked out. A few days later a good Christian friend of mine who is also skirts only texts me saying "I'm getting rid of some skirts do you want them?" My heart LEAPED with excitement and thanks. I told her I did and would come over after church to check them out. When I got to her house I was expecting 2-3 skits. She gave me TEN skirts! TEN! That's more skirts then I already owned! But like I said I serve (we serve)a LOVING, FAITHFUL, and MERCIFUL GOD! He said in His word that He would take care of us. He said not to worry about anything because HE KNOWS our needs! I've never felt as loved in my whole life as I feel From my WONDERFUL, AMAZING, BRILLIANT GOD!

30Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?

31Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?

32(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

33But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. -Matthew 6:30-33

A song that's on my heart..

VICTORY IN JESUS

I heard an old, old story,
How a Savior came from glory,
How He gave His life on Calvary
To save a wretch like me;
I heard about His groaning,
Of His precious blood's atoning,
Then I repented of my sins
And won the victory.


Chorus
O victory in Jesus,
My Savior, forever.
He sought me and bought me
With His redeeming blood;
He loved me ere I knew Him
And all my love is due Him,
He plunged me to victory,
Beneath the cleansing flood.

I heard about His healing,
Of His cleansing pow'r revealing.
How He made the lame to walk again
And caused the blind to see;
And then I cried, "Dear Jesus,
Come and heal my broken spirit,"
And somehow Jesus came and bro't
To me the victory.

Chorus
O victory in Jesus,
My Savior, forever.
He sought me and bought me
With His redeeming blood;
He loved me ere I knew Him
And all my love is due Him,
He plunged me to victory,
Beneath the cleansing flood.

I heard about a mansion
He has built for me in glory.
And I heard about the streets of gold
Beyond the crystal sea;
About the angels singing,
And the old redemption story,
And some sweet day I'll sing up there
The song of victory.


Chorus
O victory in Jesus,
My Savior, forever.
He sought me and bought me
With His redeeming blood;
He loved me ere I knew Him
And all my love is due Him,
He plunged me to victory,
Beneath the cleansing flood.

HOW BEAUTIFUL AND TRUE! THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOUR CLEANSING POWER! PRAISE THE ALMIGHTY GOD!!!!!!

Prayer Life

I will be the first to admit that as a young Christian my prayer life isn't that great. But for the first time I've really seen the truth is God's prayer promises.

Psalm 6:9 "Jehovah hath heard my supplication; Jehovah will recieve my prayer."

Psalm 66:19 "But verily God hath heard; He hath attended to the voice of my prayer."

Jeremiah 33:3 "Call unto me, and I will answer the, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not."

Jeremiah 29:12 "Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you."

These are just a FEW of the promises that can be found in HIS word! Our LORD is so faithful, loving, and just that HE offers Himself to us endlessly. It feels so amazing to KNOW that I have a GOD that I can depend on, that will comfort me when I need it, give me strength when I need it, and love me ALWAYS! I've found when I pour my burdens out to the LORD HE is faithful to lift them from me and give me rest. "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." -Matthew 11:28

It took me awhile to really develop good prayer habits, and I still have A TON of room to grow. But I went from barely praying at all to praying daily multiple times when the mood strikes! I purposed to pray more and now it seems second nature. I spent days here and there devoting the entire day to prayer. I would pray before every move and then thank God immediately after. Other days I would purpose to pray continuously about a certain topic. I basically DRILLED it into myself to pray! I pray for my church, my church family, my friends, unsaved family, my fiances family, and then what ever needs I have. I thank God continuously for all His MANY blessings! Now with the help from my wonderful SAVIOR praying isn't a chore anymore! I love to have that one on one time with God, to just let Him know what I'm happy about, what I'm sad about, and what I'm needing His help with. I know He already knows, but it feels good to be able to vent to an always listening ear! What's better than being able to freely speak to God??????? I can only think of one thing; Him speaking to us! But then again that's what out Bibles are for!

In HIM always,
Tee

A Ribband of Blue...

On Easter Sunday my pastor gave a wonderful sermon that I've been meditating on for some time now. The sermon was on remembering and keeping God's commandments. Not in order for us to obtain and maintain salvation but rather to show our love for our savior and creator! I've been going back and forth on what God's will is for me and not being sure if I am clearly "hearing His voice", but sitting in church with my fiance by my side I realized that my WONDERFUL SAVIOR has been placing a burden on my heart to follow the things He has laid out before me.

"37And the LORD spake unto Moses, saying,

38Speak unto the children of Israel, and bid them that they make them fringes in the borders of their garments throughout their generations, and that they put upon the fringe of the borders a ribband of blue:

39And it shall be unto you for a fringe, that ye may look upon it, and remember all the commandments of the LORD, and do them ; and that ye seek not after your own heart and your own eyes, after which ye use to go a whoring:

40That ye may remember, and do all my commandments, and be holy unto your God.

41I am the LORD your God, which brought you out of the land of Egypt, to be your God: I am the LORD your God." -Numbers 15:37-41

I will be keeping a "ribband of blue" on my blog to remind my self and others of the commands that our wonderful and loving God has given us. The commands aren't to hinder us but rather to help us grow. He knows what's best and I am striving to trust Him in ALL areas. I find when I'm reading my Bible that I am searching for what it is that God wants me to do. I'm constantly searching for direction. I am still a new Christian and I know that it will take a life time to even learn what all of the commands of God are. But there are areas in my life where I can firmly stand and begin my obedience.

I think it's only fitting that I start with learning and preparing myself to be a submissive wife. I'm currently studying this, reading and reviewing scriptures. I know that since God said it in His word He means it.

Another area that I've been focusing on is praising God. I want to be certain that I am honoring Him in all that I do and that I am properly showing Him praise. Past studies have shown me that there is an incorrect way to praise Him, and that's not a mistake I want to make!

This journey has taught me SOOOO much and I'm so excited to keep learning. I know I've been away for awhile but I'm back and even more hungry for my Lord than before!

Yours in Christ,
Tee

SPRING IS IN THE AIR!!

Praise GOD! the weather is finally warming up! I love spring! It's such an awesome time to sit back and reflect on the love of our Lord and Savior JESUS CHRIST! This Resurrection Sunday I have a lot to be thankful for! Not only am I thankful for the work that was done on the cross but I am thankful for being ENGAGED! I am very pleased to announce that S/O is now my Fiance! We have set the date for October 2, 2010. This is such a joyous and busy time for me. I'm trying to train my daughter and teach her about why this time of year means so much to us as Christians and also not rob her of the fun of the season. She is only 16 months so she doesn't understand it all, but I think in the future we will focus on the beauty of spring and how God created it all! Also planning a wedding is A LOT of work! So much has gone on and I want to fill you in on every little detail but its too much to even begin. Although I haven't been posting I have still been loving the Lord. my only access to the Internet is through my Blackberry so unless I can get on to my moms it will still be a bit difficult to post but I'll be working on it. Until next time.

Miss T

My Apologies

I am terribly sorry I haven't been able to post. I don't have access to a computer with the internet. But where there's a will there's a way and God willing I will be back to posting soon!