Wednesday, October 19, 2011


What matters in life? Is it time spent with loved ones, the things we acquire, the status we reach?  Or is it the time we spend with Hashem?  While I've been away from blogging I've been learning a lot about my self and what really matters to me. To be really honest, I've been lonely. I felt like I didn't have a friend in the world. But as I've learned that isn't true. I have an amazing Abba that loves me and never leaves me lonely. When I feel alone its because I have left Him. Its easy to turn to the things we've always known and that are tangible for comfort. Its easy to find peace in what we see, and not in the things we don't. But it's those times when we must solely rely on our faith, that's when we find true comfort. It is in our weakness that we are made strong and it is by faith that we are able to carry on.

I think for me it's easy to get lost in the shuffle because I didn't grow up with strong faith. We had a lot of traditions but for me personally they weren't spiritually fulfilling. Now that I know what routines and traditions keep my "spiritual tank" full I still seem to drop the ball! I guess its just human nature to get lazy but I'm working on it. I discovered that when I blog I keep my self spiritually grounded and looking heavenward. Hashem made me a writer and an artist for a reason. I need to use the things He gave me to communicate with Him.

I was reading back over some of the different things I've written and I kind of inspired myself! I realized that He knows what He's doing! So I need to just chill out sometimes. I get too wrapped up in the out come of things and I miss right now. I think I've mentioned this before. But at least you know I struggle too, and sometimes with the same things repeatedly! So now here I am for the millionth time at the point of teshuva {repentance}. I'm turning back to Hashem and getting my priorities in order.

I pray that your Fall Chagim {holidays} have been blessed and that you feel refreshed and more connected to Hashem then before. 

Love and Blessings, 

Monday, October 3, 2011

A new year....

A few weeks ago I celebrated my 25th birthday! I'm really excited about starting a new phase in my life, but I've been confused about a lot of things too. On my birthday I decided to read Psalm 25 and I was so shocked to find that it is MY psalm for this time in my life. It's like YHVH was giving me the words I had been praying for.

Psalm 25
 1Unto thee, O LORD, do I lift up my soul.
 2O my God, I trust in thee: let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triumph over me.
 3Yea, let none that wait on thee be ashamed: let them be ashamed which transgress without cause.
 4Shew me thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths.
 5Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.

 6Remember, O LORD, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses; for they have been ever of old.
 7Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions: according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness' sake, O LORD.
 8Good and upright is the LORD: therefore will he teach sinners in the way.
 9The meek will he guide in judgment: and the meek will he teach his way.
 10All the paths of the LORD are mercy and truth unto such as keep his covenant and his testimonies.
 11For thy name's sake, O LORD, pardon mine iniquity; for it is great.
 12What man is he that feareth the LORD? him shall he teach in the way that he shall choose.
 13His soul shall dwell at ease; and his seed shall inherit the earth.
 14The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant.
 15Mine eyes are ever toward the LORD; for he shall pluck my feet out of the net.
 16Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted.
 17The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses.
 18Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins.
 19Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with cruel hatred.
 20O keep my soul, and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee.
 21Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on thee.
 22Redeem Israel, O God, out of all his troubles.
YHVH is so good and as I continue on this journey I know that He will guide my steps and show me the path He wants me to take. So I'm saying "hello 25, you sure are looking good!"

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