Before I got saved there was something placed on my heart. I've always had a desire to know and to love the LORD but I didn't quite know how to go about it. I was raised Roman Catholic, attend Catholic school my entire life (even two years at a Catholic college) but something was missing. for the last couple of years I've been watching the Duggar family on TLC and their love for the LORD is so visible that it encouraged me A LOT. One day while I was watching I couldn't shake the idea of modesty. This also was around the time when I was at my lowest point and realized "I NEED GOD". I began to dig and dig looking on ANY website I could find that had articles on the subject. Surprisingly I would stumble across Bible verses, and I would write them down and look them up. A few times, particularly on sites that supported wearing dresses only, there would be verses that spoke about how to dress.
I searched for days, I even searched for the opposing views, yet I still came back to the same conclusion. God cares how we dress! One verse that really struck my heart is 1 Timothy 2:9 In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array. From studying this verse was when I began to see that modesty isn't just about how we dress but also how we carry ourselves. I could be covered from head to toe and yet still walk and talk like a completely ungodly, unsaved, person. So I had to learn to watch my mouth (and my temper). But the whole dress issue was still up in the air, as well as the no costly array! when I read that my first thought went to the Duggar family and them shopping at thrift stores and I though to myself "I WILL NEVER SHOP AT A THRIFT STORE!".
As I kept digging another verse struck my heart. Dueteronomy 22:5 The woman shall not wear that which pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man put on woman's garment: for all that do so are abomination unto the LORD THY GOD. GASP! ok so now what do I do? I looove my pants (especially skinny jeans). Surely pants made for women would suffice. Then my mind started racing and one thought kept replaying "they are still pants!" So I talked it over with S/O, who was delighted because he's always wanted me to wear skirts because he just thought it would be more feminine and he likes that. Then I took it to the LORD in prayer.
The next day I woke up and I had to get a skirt! I couldn't wear pants a day longer! I cringed as I pulled my favorite pair of jeans on! That was it I was CONVICTED! HUGE GASP! I RUSHED to the GOODWILL because I knew I couldn't afford to just change my entire wardrobe! I couldn't believe I was ACTUALLY IN A GOODWILL! SHOPPING! I wore the same skirt for a week. Then that Friday I went and purchased another skirt. And these skirts weren't just skirts. They were full on down to my ankles SUPER modest skirts. My first skirt is still my favorite. I think its because God sent me to it. But now Fridays (when we can afford it) has become my goodwill day to look for skirts. I don't always leave with something but I usually at least go take a look. The only pants I have left are a pair of jeans that I'm going to turn into a skirt when I find the right material and maternity pants (which will also get turned in to skirts when they're needed).
This long story is just to point out how God has a way of reaching out to us if we'd only listen. I still have a hard time listening but it's something I'm working on. I even still have a hard time praying but I'm working on that too. But the thing that keeps me going is knowing that God is working on me!